This photo below was taken in the year of 2015. I was super popular and I was making funny videos. I made it to 9gag! I had almost a 1000 followers on Instagram. I was making a lot of friends and a lot of fans and then suddenly I found myself entrapped in this stupid relationship with my ex boyfriend that I left it all. I deleted everything for his stupid sake because he told me that I was too funny and I made too many jokes and it was ridiculous because it was very ‘unlady like’. My friends also treated me no better. I got so lost and confused that I deleted everything for his sake. I deleted my Instagram. Well, that dumb relationship never lasted for long and I regret everything. I regret not being me. I want to be ME in every realm of my life :- work, personal , family and with friends! I don’t understand what’s wrong with that! I Just want to be me! I’ve learnt things the hard way but yes I’ve realized that certain things – keep it to yourself and don’t be overboard with anything but then again, never lose yourself or your personality
So this song by nelly furtado used to be my every-relationship-got-over-crying-song.
Not anymore though, now I just giggle at my silliness…Nevertheless the lyrics are deep.
The opening of the song starts with the fact that life is dandy and it goes on with the following quote that states,
“…We are what we don’t see
Miss everything day dreaming
Flames to dust,
Lovers to friends,
Why do all good things come to an end?”
…Makes you think about all of those moments where things never went as planned in your life.
and yes, I still listen to this song and I still Love the music.
Does anyone else have a habit of re-watching, re-listening to the same music and the same movies again and again? I do. I have a habit of re-watching and re-listening to the same piano melodies, to the same movies again and again. I don’t let go off things easily that has been done in the past. I even HATE replacing old handbags with new ones and replacing old phones with new ones. I have this certain kind of attachment that I develop with my accessories. I only let my old handbags go when my mother and my sister roll their eyes at me and tell me to get a new one and even when I get the new one, I still keep my old bag safely…I feel a little emotional even over using new handbags over the old ones! Haha ! It often leads to comical relief within the household due to my expression and actions over certain things like this …like my bag…
and when it comes to people…I am over to the top emotional and I feel things more than they could and I imagine having a bond with them within my head, very close to what it actually is…and through this imagination…a creative imagination, I get hurt…I get badly hurt…I get very bruised…but I am learning…I am learning…
Has anyone watched the movie, “One hour photo” ? – it has a beautiful yet a disturbing image of people that are lonely…people that want to belong to a family…A disturbing yet a beautiful film on lonely people. I loved it, it makes me empathize a lot more with people that are isolated….May God bless people like Sy and RIP Robin Williams for wonderfully portraying the role of Sy – the photoguy
Walking through the man made escapades that are trying too hard to look like the vast nature is intriguing. It’s very intriguing. It’s also ironic because men keep trying to destroy the beautiful nature as well although they try to build their castles and architecture similar to the entity of the nature. Man is a hypocrite in every form
“You maybe struggling for help by people around you that had once promised to be around you for the rest of your life but when the time comes and you’re all alone with nothing, people will walk away from you. Only your lord will help you so don’t neglect him. Don’t neglect the lord and he won’t neglect you. God is indeed the most merciful. I had nobody to look after me, no father, no lover, no friends and I was all by myself, broken and devastated in pain. Nobody wanted to be my friend either when I told them about my troubles or even listen to me but the day I devoted myself complaining and asking god for his mercy, the light and the doors of my troubles Opened for me, slowly but surely. God didn’t leave me….when everyone else left me. I would never want to displease my lord ever again.”
Photo taken from the web : authentic quote from the Quran
I’m blessed to have enough and be content with the food that I get to eat and the bed that I get to sleep on everyday. I also pray for those reading this post also attains the same and better opportunities in life. Stay humble and stay grateful.
It’s strange how many divisions exist within a religion itself. For instance, I am a Sunni-Hanafi and our school and thinking related to Islam is different compared to those that are present in other countries such as the wahabbis (extremists) school of Islamic thought that come from Saudi Arabia. Actually it’s not even Saudi, different people have different thinking and mindset related to religion.
Just like Christianity, Islam also has its own school of thoughts.
You have orthodox, Catholics, Protestants and what not in Christianity.
You have people that also believe in the KKK just like we have people that believe in ISIS
We are also divided like other religions, even though we are trying too hard not to but this is the reality that exists.
I’m only saying this because ignorance related to Islam needs to end and islamophobia needs to end.
Don’t compare us to extremists! We don’t like them either!